My sunshine

My bestest friend in the world, Antibelle is coming to visit me soon. I can not even begin to tell you how excited I am for this. I last saw Antibelle in January of 2006. Her presence is long over due. Whenever I am down, or pissed, or just needing someone to talk to, she is always there for me no matter what. Our mutual friend, Mr. Cable Guy is also coming. Antibelle is the greatest person I have ever met, and will ever meet for that matter. No matter what is going on with me, she is there. She makes me feel better about myself. She lets me know that even when I feel like I have nothing, she is there. It really sucks that she is so far away from me. I thought that us living on separate sides of our college town was far enough. In college, we lived approximately 5 minutes away from one another. Now, the person I most relate to is 1,429 miles away. I am applying for positions where my parents live. If I end up going there, I will only be 263 miles (about 4 hours 34 mins) away. Antibelle is my sunshine. She lets me know that even if I don't have many people here in the Lone Star State, I am not alone. It goes to show that people you meet in college can be your friends no matter where they are transplanted. Life is so strange sometimes. Every morning while driving to work, the sun splatters my windshield of my car giving me a sign that my Antibelle is out there. Distance can't do anything to a friendship like ours. One day, my dearest friend will be the Maid of Honor at my wedding (to be determined), and the god mother of my children (also to be determined). I just want to thank her for what we have together. I will never find another sunshine, but if anyone is interested in a full moon, just let me know.......

Something to NOT be pissed about

There is a wonderful guy I have been talking to. My mom met him at her Tae Kwon Do classes. I have not even met the guy, but we are constantly communicating. We talk on the phone daily, we email one another back and forth, and I am about to start sending random, yet fun packages to him in the mail. Even though I haven't met the guy (I'll call him NJ) I feel as though I know him already. NJ and I live 1,642.7 miles away from one another, so I guess if I am to be pissed about anything in this blog, the distance can be it. I feel that this has made it more worthwhile in actually getting to know him. There are so many people today that look at you and just want to get to know you based on what they see. This isn't the case with NJ. We emailed before we spoke, and after hitting it off there, we expanded our communication barriers and went to speaking over the telephone. I asked my friend Antibelle yesterday if it was possible to miss someone you didn't even know. I am still asking myself this question. The problem in getting to know people based on what you see is that they can disappoint you by lacking substance. When I talk to NJ, I feel like I have known him for a long time. I know that people out there say it is possible to fall in love with someone over the Internet and whatnot, but I never realized how possible it actually is. I am not saying that I am in love with the guy, but what if he turns out to be what I have been looking for all along? From our conversations, I definitely see potential. NJ has jokingly told me he is the man of my dreams, and all women for that matter, but they just can't handle it. What if he is and what if I can (handle it that is)? When I think about him, I am not pissed off. When I am pissed off, he makes me feel better. I think this is how it is supposed to be. I just never felt like this. I never felt like someone over a thousand miles away could make me feel like a lady, and beautiful. I can't help but smile when I think about him, or something he has said to me. I should thank him for helping me not be so pissed off all the time. I'll have to remember that for our next conversation.